My dreams and my reality, both of them seems to be my reality. I greatly wonder, is my dream, a reality of another choice I've taken? If I connect my past condition and my present situation, this theory might be true, and what I'm experiencing now as my reality would may be dreamt by the me in my dreams as a dream. 

        If so, I will thank you for making that choice, because certainly, my dream is what I've always wished to be my reality, but the dream i dreamt last night, it was the first time I had felt this warmth, but the situation was just so cold, it was a feeling I have always wished to have, but the situation? I don't want it, I never wish that I would bring you any trouble...

        The truth is, I lied, to all, and to me. After some flashback, I realize that the pain I've been through, wasn't much at all. I've been given all needs and satisfaction since young, and never have I been in such terrible pain. Not in the past, not now.

        The only pain I've been through is untrusted and one more, which cannot be revealed. I have been closing my left eye and replace it with my heart to see the world for too long, and I can feel the unfelt, but cannot feel the felt. As for my right eye, which I don't close, don't feel the dire situation I'm in. What is supposed to feel have I not felt, and what is supposed to be abstract to me came into reality to me, feeling those pains shared by others.

        Life, is about taking chances, never letting anything good bypass, letting only happiness to stay, and forget about all the pain. but little did they know, that life, is nothing more but a fool's play, just like William Shakespeare said... 

        Everyone fears test, so do I. But do I have the option to deny the test? No. Why? Because it is not I who is in control of my own life. I have no choice, no options, no vision and no sights. Only walking blindly, like a walking dead, with a cold skin.

        They say that your life is your own decision, and yet they are wrong. It is not you to decide but decided, by fate. Everything that happened, every dramatic scenes, every single talents that we possess, was all already recorded down in our book of life. Every step we take, we thought it is a big step towards life. This is nothing more but mere vague in life for it is us that was destined to walk down that path, and not our decision that lead us there.

        If you disagree with my beliefs, I'd say, think about it, was it us that chose night and day? Or was it destined to be in it's place? Or let us take an easier example, no matter how far we have walked down our path, we will always end up on the same spot and coordination, and that's the only fate we share - Death...