No one in this world could understand me, 

and no one ever will. 

The book of my story will be forever, sealed.  

        Hey... I don't know whether you are reading this, but I just feel like this place is the right one for me to speak out. I just want you to know that in this world there is no perfect joy, therefore there is no perfect misery. So, things will get better, just be patient. Oh and, if you ever need someone to talk to, you know I'm here. (:

• Why do humans always look to the sky? Why do you try so hard to fly when you don't have any wings? As for us, we run. - Kiba

        I hope that you can promise me that you will not run anymore, embrace it okay? (:

        I realized, that when I said something harsh to you, or when I regretted doing something that I don't really wish to do to you, I will, find you in my dreams. The truth is, I don't want you to be in my dreams no matter how close we may be in it. I choose reality pain instead of illusionary happiness. If I ever see you in my dreams, can I assume, that you are in depression? If I can, then I would do whatever I can, to prevent you from entering my dreams, or to be more specified, my nightmares.

Even though this sucks, 

Even though this made you feel mad,

Even though this hurts me,

Even though I feel like crying now,

But one thing's for sure,

And that's you've successfully destroyed my promise,

The promise which creates a pit.

I thank you for teaching me self-control.

I thank you for teaching me life experiences.

I thank you for making me felt the worst.

And most of all,

I thank you...

For releasing me from my pain.

Even though there's still this last pain I'm feeling,

But I know,

That it won't last for long,

Because the Moon will be shining fully soon.

Thank you for all your time spent on me.

Good Luck, And Live Happily, In Your Life.

Going down with the Moon,

Whisperer

        Everyone grows, and so will I. In this 15 years of my life, I somehow felt like I've been through different lives. If I think back now, I realise that the me in the past and the me in the present, is totally different. In the previous words from My Heart, I mentioned that I was divided into 4 parts, Soul, Mind, Vessel and Heart. And these 4 parts, matched my life.

        When I was 5, it felt like my Mind was in control of my actions. My thoughts were totally wicked and reckless, similar to the mind of a 14-18, it was totally filled with things a teenage boy would think in the age starting from 13. 

       

        When I was 8, I grew soft, like my Heart has awaken and stopping my Mind. I even felt sympathy for a potato that was crushed under the legs of a classmate. I had feared to do things that will hurt myself as well as others.

        When I was 11,  I started to love wolves, I started to become more aggressive, my actions were brave, doing things upon dared, rebelling my family, and likes to pack around with friends to have a chat. I also started to seek for strength, the stronger the better, and become a vigorous Vessel.

        And now I am 15, I started to believe that to hope is to give up. I started to feel alone, but yet like it. I started to be cold, emotionless, a person without feelings. I even believe that 'life' is nothing more but a reflection, everything we've done, is both a sanity and a sin. Try thinking back in your actions, and think the other way instead of the way u thought of it.

        I've only live for 15 years, so maybe another aspect will fall upon me as time passes by. And if you think that these words can't possibly come from a boy with only an age of 15, then read again, when I was 5, my thoughts were similar to those of 14-18, which means that there's a possibility that my thoughts were as old as a 45-50.